Chorus:
I went back when I said I wasn't
I swore I wouldn't, but then I does it
It seems to happen all of a sudden
I didn't tell you, don't want your judgement

Verse 1:
It's easy to walk away and say that it's over
it's harder to go more than a week of been sober
There's a lot of ups and downs riding this roller coaster
finding it harder to hold my composure
I can admit it
I am addicted
don't know how to fix it
didn't know I was afflicted
so deeply that I was shiftin'
I love something that made me so sick this
is so twisted
how'd I miss it
Intuition tried to tell
but I didn't listen/
And now I see I been giving in the cycle/
All those months that I look.back I have been in denial /
Halted things I loved, suddenly I went idol/
So isolated at times I felt mad suicidal
Not that it's something that I would try
I just didn't care if I died at that moment in time
The pains was amplified I gave into lies as
'Til the wool lifted from my eyes and I took back my life

Chorus:
I went back when I said I wasn't
I swore I wouldn't, but then I does it
It seems to happen all of a sudden
I didn't tell you, don't want your judgement

Verse 2:
I know I said I wouldn't and I swear I was set
Weather I stay or walk away there'll be regret
There's a vicious battle between my heart and my mind
It's tearing me apart; It's time to pick a side to align
Theres a conflict - my logic and emotions don't mix
I start getting withdrawals bad and needing you quick
You give that fix, with the right words or a kiss
My whole plan is eclipsed
I tried to.stay away but couldn't resist
Wish it was easy as its made out to sound
How do I break out of this if I am spellbound?
I'm getting dizzy from riding this merry go round
Tried to mute you but you still playin' in my background
Even while I smile there's a sadness that seeps
Underneath... way down, I'm talking bout deep
It creeps up on me in my sleep or those vulnerable moments
When it hits me that I miss you and didn't even know it

Chorus:
I went back when I said I wasn't
I swore I wouldn't, but then I does it
It seems to happen all of a sudden
I didn't tell you, don't want your judgement

Verse 3:
I'm stressed and overthinking
It's got me smoking and drinking/
Clinking my glass to the past I been clinging to and ask
for God to bring in new memories or remedies to the pain I feel
Cause things I used to love just do not have the same appeal
I pack my life with distractions - I enrolled in more classes
Play somebody else that's why I like acting
I use that and rapping as my way of trying to sober up
And yeah it makes me happy but still I'm not over us
So I still come over love - just no overnights
It's not that dangerous if I microdose right?
It hurt me too much tryna quit you cold turkey
Plus you said you'd go half with me on this journey
I'm in Richmond, you in Oakland, so meet me in Berkeley
Just let me know and I'll be there when I'm done working
Like that we're back so naturally and that's all it took
No matter how many times I quit you, I can't cause I'm hooked/

Chorus (x2):
I went back when I said I wasn't (ooh I went back)
I swore I wouldn't, but then I does it (didn't mean to do that)
It seems to happen all of a sudden
I didn't tell you, don't want your judgement